Pretty Dystrophy

Today was my official day at work, and i’m glad to say it was great!

I worked 9am-3pm, and everything went smooth. I must say its not a very transited store, it definitely doesn’t get packed, so i like and dislike that at the same time. I like it because its not stressful, running from here to there, folding clothes all the time because people keep touching and unfolding them, etc. But at the same time it can get boring. I guess i will feel more comfortable with it once I’m used to the place.

Being new and not knowing some of my co-workers didn’t help. There is this girl, who is a very nice and sweet girl don’t get me wrong, but she kept complimenting me, like CONSTANTLY, really uncomfortable. The boss introduced us, and the first thing she said was ‘i love your hair!’
A few minutes later my friend, the manager’s asst., was teaching me how to use the register, this girl walks by and says ‘i just noticed your shoes, love them!’, i said thanks again.
Yet again a few minutes later, i’m walking out of the office and she comes to me, and goes ‘wait, i just wanted to see your eyes closer. I noticed earlier, they’re gorgeous!” Awkward, i say thanks, and she goes ‘you should model!’

Well call me weird, but it makes me so uncomfortable when a person i don’t know compliments me all the frigging time! I told my friend and she was like, maybe she wants to make you feel comfortable in your first day? Well her intentions are backfiring completely!
And just as she was leaving, she left an hour before me, she comes up to me and tells me ‘you gotta tell me where you got your earrings, love them!’ Lol, i was like, i give up haha.

I don’t know how to explain this without sounding completely self-centered and conceited, but after she told me that i should model, comment that i’ve gotten twice this weekend by the way, i’ve been going through my modeling portfolio and old photoshoots i’ve done, and wondering where i failed or why i didn’t make it. I started modeling when i was 15 because my mom insisted i’d go to an agency, and i admit i liked the idea. Everything in fashion, from design, to posing, to photography, the lighting, the set, the final product, i just love everything about it, and it makes me sad that i never really got to where i wanted to. Its not like i think i deserve to be a top model with my thunder thighs haha, but i know some girls who aren’t all that pretty or hot, but have made it far because they had their families’ support. My mom supported me, my dad not so much, not at all. Between 2007-2008 i did so many photoshoots it was crazy. My agency called me like literally twice or three times a week to do something, whether it was a casting for tv, a photoshoot, commercial, anything. Because i was in college, i had to turn down many of the things i was offered, and could only say yes to photoshoots that weren’t going to take time off my classes or were done in the weekend. Why? My dad. There is one thing my dad has always kept very clear, i can party, go out, spend money, ALMOST do anything i want, BUT i had to attend law school (can you tell he is a lawyer? Ha, and so is my mom), and once started, finished university.

Ugh, don’t know i’m just rumbling. Just like, sometimes, feel like my dad stopped me from doing things that i would have really enjoyed and could have taken me somewhere, if not, at least live amazing one of a kind experiences. Like being the most famous national tv summer program’s ’summer girl’, offer that i had to reject because the filming began before college was over for summer. That among many other things.

Yeah, education is important. Yes, college is important. But you have to agree with me that are certain things that you can only do while you’re young, and there are offers that only come once in your life, while college will always be there.
I wish my dad would understand that.